freaky sunday

Sunday was a complicated day for me cause a lot of things kept happen so quickly, and each thing has its own  different surprise, feeling and emotion.. I mean it was a long crazy day, and what made it so long and exhausted that I didn’t sleep the night before and I didn’t prepare myself well for my presentation that I talked about previously, because I was in a really bad mood and I barley could stay alive.. yeah seriously

Anyway thanks god I could stand on my feet that day and dragged myself to the university, I spent the first hour of the morning talking to Amani my friend and telling her what happened to me last night, then I went to the radiotherapy class, and it went so good actually! From the moment the doctor showed up she notice me and said: come sit close to me Suzy, let me see what you bring us today.. I was so scared and embarrassed cause I did nothing actually but reading it for a couple of time and that’s it..I didn’t prepare myself to stand up in front the whole class and explain every little thing I wrote in details! My morale was in the bottom and I was so emotionally hurt from the night before, so I was ready to tell her just take the papers and give me any mark u want.. but quitting is not my thing I suppose, so I ended up letting her to tell me what to do..

So I was explain what I wrote to her quietly and pointing to some important parts and stuff and she just loved it.. and instantly gave me a full mark I was so happy and relieved at the time and I thought that’s it, my work is done.. but NO way :S I still had to play the doctor role for the day.. the girls in the class knew about me before, so they tried to convince her to reschedule for me but that just made me feel worse so I did it anyway.

And I’m proud to say that it went so good, cause after I finished she stand up , clapped for me while she walked toward me and started to complement me in a very cheerful way, I was blushing and excited I didn’t expect that she would really love my oral presentation and I’m in such a bad mood!! I was so glad that I did impress her  and now every time she see me she call me Dr. Suzy LOOOL It’s really amazing.

So after all, I had my time for a moment but that wasn’t the end of the day, cause immediately after that I had the worst, horrible, most hurtful phone call conversation in my whole life that I’ve never thought that I would ever had it!!! which made me so sad and tired again! And it continued till I back home… I was crying all the afternoon and reconsidering some things in my life..

There are some people around me, even close to me who I thought they were trust worthy, I shared a lot with them, my secrets, my stories, my loyalty, honesty and caring.. I gave them almost everything.. and what do I get back from them? Lying! Cheating? And more lying!!!! I always thought that I have a very good evaluation for people, and my intuitions always came true. But now, I realized that some people are an excellent actors, and they know how to play their roles very well, and how to get what they want whenever they want so easy.. even if it means that they should break you’re heart by breaking all the rules.

It’s not like I’ve never know they were existing, but I didn’t know that they would get me!!! I thought I’m smart enough to find out about those kind of people before they hurt me! But no, cause believe me some have a PHD. In acting, and they are all over around you.

Back to my freaky Sunday, my best friend Ferfer came at 6 pm. And I was really happy to see her at the time. I needed to see an old best friend who you know that you could run to them whenever you want and always find them there for you. We talked a lot and catch up what missing and it was so much fun and relieving for me

So by the night I became calm and relaxed enough to make some decisions I had to made.. so I ended some hanged issues and I took a short break from some.. which I think it might be a very long break actually.. and time will heal my wounds for sure.

Teasing msg from lolla :S

another teasing msg from medO :S if i had a dollar everytime some one ask me that question

Exams Free :)

Listening to: Az Yet – Last Night
Mood: happy + Sad!!!

So I finished this day and im sooo relieved for that.. still im worried for the results and I’m praying for big fat A’s
What make this day the best and the worst in the same time that i had my Quantum exam and it was hell hard, I almost wanna cry on the papers :’(
But its fine now…. Im so happy that I finished this semester and all what I wanna think about that im going to Jeddah now to have fun and forget about uni for a while…cuz I swear my brain is damage from studying all these shit :S and I can use a looooong looong days of spoiling and indulging myself and that’s what im gnna do..

Well, have to take a nap now ..

ill leave u with random pix that I took months b4:

Peek-a-Boo I see u!

ham ow Ra7

Listening to: A whole New World – Aladin & Jasmin
Mood: Relieve

Finaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally I finish Quantum Mechanics exam although I didn’t do well but I’m so happy and relieve cuz I finished it. It was a burden on my shoulder and I was waiting for the moment I through it away…!
When I woke up I decided to not take the exam cuz I didn’t finish studying! I was crying like crazy, called ‘MooNi‘ and talked to her to tell her wish u luck in the exam but she convinced me to show up and take it even if I didn’t answer one damn question! the exam was hell difficult and I just answered the first question :S *wallah ye7med rabbo cuz 7allaitoh :p* and I ignore the rest of course cuz it was so beyond my interest !! I was the first girl out of that gloomy exam room, even the supervisor was so surprised cuz I finish this early while the other girls were trying so hard to answer, there was a big exclamation mark above her head and she was flipping the pages of my answer sheets and asked me : (did u answered all the questions ?!), I answered without looking at her with soooo ridicules “I don’t care” face expression: (hell no !) *lol*
Any way when I get out I saw ‘SALAMOON‘ and told her: (see, I told ya I will finish early loool) she laughed all loud cuz she didn’t expect that I could be serious and do it , but I did ! for the first time of my life I do something like this….! And I hope it will be the last!
When it comes to uni I take everything very serious and spare no effort to study, but in quantum everything was so confusing from the beginning and I knew that I will never finish studying this shit in even a week..!
Anyway im so relieve right now and im happy and nothing could disturb my mind even when I hear later about my bad mark I won’t be sad at all cuz no one sane can survive this thing :S

Dracula in the uni

music: Back at One – Shayne ward

mood: raygah! 

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there are a lot of things happen in our life that we just can’t let it go without talking about.. whether it was an accident,  a weird situation, a remarkable day, a funny story or even people you met!! yes people who makes an impact in you’re life, in a good or a bad way… for me, I can’t always remember those who leave a good impression about themselves, cause I meet a lot of them all the time *thank god*.. but I can easily remember those who annoy me, disturb my mood and ruin my day, or who make me feel inconvenience, cause actually I rarely see them.. they  pop up in my life once in a while *unfortunately*…

 one of those people is a woman in our university, that I never ever see her outfit EVER :S .. she always wear 3abayah although that there are no men around… she never walk without it when she check the classrooms.. she’s more like a pat-woman with her black and dark style!! and I can confirm that she bring this black scary aureole around her *as in the horror movie :S* and she have to surprise you when she come in an unexpected time..! she had that white and pale Dracula frown face, with a scary pop out eyes!!!! I swear I’ve never see this woman smile before!!! and she never talk and if she did, she would say something stupid or stupid… !

   I still didn’t figure out what is her job in the university exactly!?  She just interrupt our lectures with her scary face, stare at the girls, do her “tashmeegah” move, then go :S !!!! so can I know what she suppose to get pay for?? Or as my friend Amani says: ” hada esmoh hadr le Amwal aldawlah *lol* ”  seriously I don’t know what made me blog about her! ..Maybe cuz she really started to annoy me :S ..Well I just wanted to talk about this woman since I can’t tell her that in her face till I know what the hell is she doing in our uni exactly ..!  I’m starting to think that she’s just a ghost :S ! 

                                            C ya                                          

 

 

 

Sad/Happy Saturday

Although I didn’t wanna  get up and go to the university this morning, I was glad cuz I did go cuz we took all lectures today.. first day of school always make this conflict feelings inside us, you feel happy cuz you’re ganna meet all you’re friends again after the vocation & in the same time you feel frustrated because of all the boring lectures you’re going to take.. well, that was my feeling today. What make it worse that I was so tired cuz I didn’t get much sleep last night. And that showed on me since the first lecture “Quantum Mechanics” the most boring course ever, it’s all about mathematics and I hate math! I was literally struggling to be a wake and write down my notes! Gosh I hope I can survive this course :S

One of the common things in our uni that make me laugh to death is the way girls dress up in this particular period of time. They look like they came from a costume or Halloween party or something, to be more accurate, they look soooo scary!! I swear I’ve never seen girls with tons of make up like those girls in our uni!!! Some of them can actually put like 7 different colors on there eyes!! And that shimmering powder that not supposed to be put in the morning is blinding me, I have to wear sunglasses in the class because of it   *lol*.. seriously,  who can get up early morning and put so much make up like this!!

GIRLS!! Wake up !! its not pretty at all!!!!!!!

Well, the day has passed and I have so much work to be done and so much Lectures to be write..

Wish me luck