Sunday was a complicated day for me cause a lot of things kept happen so quickly, and each thing has its own  different surprise, feeling and emotion.. I mean it was a long crazy day, and what made it so long and exhausted that I didn’t sleep the night before and I didn’t prepare myself well for my presentation that I talked about previously, because I was in a really bad mood and I barley could stay alive.. yeah seriously

Anyway thanks god I could stand on my feet that day and dragged myself to the university, I spent the first hour of the morning talking to Amani my friend and telling her what happened to me last night, then I went to the radiotherapy class, and it went so good actually! From the moment the doctor showed up she notice me and said: come sit close to me Suzy, let me see what you bring us today.. I was so scared and embarrassed cause I did nothing actually but reading it for a couple of time and that’s it..I didn’t prepare myself to stand up in front the whole class and explain every little thing I wrote in details! My morale was in the bottom and I was so emotionally hurt from the night before, so I was ready to tell her just take the papers and give me any mark u want.. but quitting is not my thing I suppose, so I ended up letting her to tell me what to do..

So I was explain what I wrote to her quietly and pointing to some important parts and stuff and she just loved it.. and instantly gave me a full mark I was so happy and relieved at the time and I thought that’s it, my work is done.. but NO way :S I still had to play the doctor role for the day.. the girls in the class knew about me before, so they tried to convince her to reschedule for me but that just made me feel worse so I did it anyway.

And I’m proud to say that it went so good, cause after I finished she stand up , clapped for me while she walked toward me and started to complement me in a very cheerful way, I was blushing and excited I didn’t expect that she would really love my oral presentation and I’m in such a bad mood!! I was so glad that I did impress her  and now every time she see me she call me Dr. Suzy LOOOL It’s really amazing.

So after all, I had my time for a moment but that wasn’t the end of the day, cause immediately after that I had the worst, horrible, most hurtful phone call conversation in my whole life that I’ve never thought that I would ever had it!!! which made me so sad and tired again! And it continued till I back home… I was crying all the afternoon and reconsidering some things in my life..

There are some people around me, even close to me who I thought they were trust worthy, I shared a lot with them, my secrets, my stories, my loyalty, honesty and caring.. I gave them almost everything.. and what do I get back from them? Lying! Cheating? And more lying!!!! I always thought that I have a very good evaluation for people, and my intuitions always came true. But now, I realized that some people are an excellent actors, and they know how to play their roles very well, and how to get what they want whenever they want so easy.. even if it means that they should break you’re heart by breaking all the rules.

It’s not like I’ve never know they were existing, but I didn’t know that they would get me!!! I thought I’m smart enough to find out about those kind of people before they hurt me! But no, cause believe me some have a PHD. In acting, and they are all over around you.

Back to my freaky Sunday, my best friend Ferfer came at 6 pm. And I was really happy to see her at the time. I needed to see an old best friend who you know that you could run to them whenever you want and always find them there for you. We talked a lot and catch up what missing and it was so much fun and relieving for me

So by the night I became calm and relaxed enough to make some decisions I had to made.. so I ended some hanged issues and I took a short break from some.. which I think it might be a very long break actually.. and time will heal my wounds for sure.

Teasing msg from lolla :S

another teasing msg from medO :S if i had a dollar everytime some one ask me that question